light outside the wolf: words after mum's suicide: before i go on, a note for my friends and family

throughout my mother's mental illness and after her death through today, my now-husband dan and his family, my family and my amazing chosen family--my friends--and others have given me extraordinary support and love. they showed me boundless kindness through words, action and peace after i lost mum. 
i don't talk about that much in what follows. 
there were lessons and truths i could only uncover, learn and internalize for myself by going really deep after mum died. there was a pit i maybe had to stumble in and learn how to get out myself. that's what i talk about, that's what is pouring out of me.
what i know for sure, is that the love surrounding me, from all my beloved people, made that process of healing much faster and probably much easier. i had reminders all around me, constantly, that i was loved. you know who you are. i'm indebted and forever grateful to you.